I don't know what to put for this title

2007-04-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

Wots up GINA... n Wots up wif ur commentssss ahahaha, its well i have not much to say here so yea... theres an beginning n heres the end > peace no war~ beef eat more~ :D

---kelvin---
tc U all...

2007-03-25T18:44:00.000-07:00

i am just sorry... i just want to make it right...

things looking pretty bad for me... i am WEAK...

2007-02-11T07:34:00.000-08:00

hey yo u all... yea ok.. erm today's a pretty satisfying day? went shopping for new years clothes wif my buddy zaini! thankyou man! for being my transport... this year, bought more expensive clothes oredi, i duno its me or is it just my age.. i am thinkin my age... hmm well, got some nice tops from zara and topshop, really liked it, comfortable wif wot i wear most imptly... though the price's a little steep, i really love the cutting of the clothings, really fittin n like just nice la... well once in awhile yea... anws, i never even bought a new footwear yet n the clothings are oredi a bomb, its a full stop there n i really should stop haha... 2007 is a new year wif lots of new enticipations to expect. i hope i'll have a good run.. ok cya!

i will be fine cannn, y cannot msg u haha...

2007-02-09T05:15:00.000-08:00

NAPFA!!!! finally over... its proven tat obviously i am getting old... ha... here are my results :]

(Poly Napfa)

Sit & Reach - 50cm
Chin up per 30s - 12 pulls

Shuttle run - 9.2secs
Sit ups per minute - 65 sit ups

Standing broad jump - 2.50m
2.4km run - 9 mins flat

i deprove in certain areas like 2.4 run, sit n reach but the rest are all good.. i guess its time to exercise moreeeeeeee ohgay..... tats all i got for today... bye bye....

2007-01-19T09:14:00.000-08:00

Hey compassionate readers, i dun have much to tok about again so i post another picture and i shall briefly talk bout it = i recently talked to a thai friend of mine and he started sending me pictures, this one particularly was a memorable one coz we were celebrating one of their fren's 21st birthday in the hotel room, he's nam btw, yea and they ask me to go to thailand as soon as possible so they could see me n bring me around, how sweet is that?! haha... i would love to man but i need the gula first :] i wish the time will come soon...

2007-01-17T11:06:00.000-08:00

Hey readers...! i duno what to blog so i decided to place meaningful pictures, these people here are the closest to me... :] i can think of a word to describe them though... beautiful? yea should be that la...

got lots of things in mind...

2006-12-22T08:27:00.000-08:00

today is a tedious long weird and tiring day... zai and dicky stayed over last night and left at 5 plus in the dusk, i was dead tired as i only got a few hours of sleep b4 asyraf and imran came over to train at my place, had a good lunch wif my dad in tampines while we head to fix my bike up at L & T cycle , its all good to go now thankfully... in the later part of the afternoon i went to meet sjai and gladys at suntec, i wanted to get some yonex apparels for my mom and dad for christmas, my cash is to the maximum limit for the first time, now i am officially broke... i got some nice simple apparels for them, i think they shd like it, i hope... any of these activities doesnt even importantly to be compared wot happened when i came home at 12 midnight... i had this voodoo heart keychained onto my tennis bag, it was a gift from someone, who means so much to me... i was walking back from the lift to my place and took me 20 freakin mins! 20 freakin mins to find out the voodoo heart keychain is missing... i panicked and started rub my head violently as i really duno wot to do, i was devastated man... the chain was just left hanging there on the bag when i went to take my dirty clothes from the bag, i was like... "w-----------------ooootttttttt???!?!?!" omg i tink its the worst trauma i've been thru... tat keychain means alot to me man... so i was desperate, i started trailing back where i walk from startin from my door step and LUCKY me, i found it in the freakin LIFT, it was lying there face down la... as if its dead, ah i noe its corny but u hav no idea how it hit me when the chain has no key, if u noe wot i mean... alright, i am done here, i am really tireddd.... peace...

2006-12-02T18:11:00.000-08:00

the morning after...

hey yoall... just came back from the marathon.. yea it was great... finished 50 mins for my run... i am surprised by my timing despite not training at all and yea as usual... u see people from different ages/race and culture... unlike last year's half marathon i wasnt over-taken by any ah pek this time! haa... i am happy wif myself coz i was just busy squeezing through the crowd tryin to find an open space to run along... this time's participation is mad cow! the 10km runners in my category like increased of a thousand people or smth.. it was jam packed! i could breathe armpit sweats every metre i run... from indian flavour to punjabi flavour... but it was fun... it was in the name of running... i respect every single runner out there... especially those who went for the full marathon... they have steel hearts... takes every sweat and muscle and most imptly tat superman mind, to pull through tat sorta run... i'll run tat category someday.. haha needa train and most imptly condition my muscles first... well, i was running all alone like every year... theres one thing tat bothers me though, haha its pathetic but yea... seeing couples running together... supportin each other... how sweet is tat?! sweeeettt... yea its too bad tis year my pal and close frens didnt run due to their prior commitments... its cool... we can always try next year! seen jaeden though at the baggage tent in the morning b4 the run... got a supportive comment from jonatha..."All the best chua.. go go go" haha, thanks jon! didnt c u though! haha... i was lookin for u at every drink station while i was running but didnt spot u ... it was a good way to start a sunday indeed but very tiring... i ended up at starbucks grabbing a cup of frap and chill out for awhile b4 i head home... oh ya and i just cut my hair... its short again... kinda weird... never cut for 4 months oredi... haa ok thanks for reading.. hav a good day...;]

i must confess

2006-11-29T10:04:00.000-08:00

Hey readers... its been a looonng period for me... and i am gona qoute another bsb song.. i noe i always did but their songs mean soo much... and yea... this one right here really sets everythin clear and right... if u wan the song! let me noe! gime ur email... i'll mail u... great song it is... oh but on second thoughts (as my great bro dennis reminded me), i came back here to edit and i am regretful to tell u tat i cant email u, its illegal... sorry!

---kelvin---

If I Don't Have You Lyrics (backstreet boys)

Every day girl I wake up and pray

That you'll come back home

And don't take too long

Cuz since you've been gone

Everything's going wrong

I wish you were here

Holding me near

You know I'd go out of my mind

If you ever left my heart behind

So I'm begging you please

Bring your sweet love back to me

Please come back to me

Chorus

If I don't have you

To hold on toI can't go on

In this world alone

Baby baby it's true

If I don't have you

If you said goodbye

Girl I would die

I'm a star with no light

A day with no night

If I don't have you

Late at night I reach to hold you tight

But you're not there

You're just not there anymore

I know you still care

And oh how I miss

Your soft and love Lovely kiss

You give to me So tenderly

We used to feel

That time would stand still

When I see you

Baby you willSo hurry home

You know you make me just so

Chorus x3

2006-11-21T20:44:00.000-08:00

hi readers, good day and here i am once again... first up... my best of friends, benedict, zaini, brother dennis and my beloved pal jiangshu tot i was missing, like HAHAHA, hows tat possible? well it all started from last night when i came back home after tennis and makan at chomp chomp wif the the guys (will get into tat later, spent quite a bit!), my bro dennis tried callin me but i didnt pick up, the fact is, i was sleeping -_-~, he panic, and called jiangshu, jiangshu started to worry, called benedict, dicky end up callin me next day but didnt get me coz i was showerin and got a few missed call from all of them, lol... in the end, zaini manage to talked to me on msn and we ALL cleared things out, haha these guys must be really concerned bout me after all tat had happened in my life... yea i love them for tat... they are simply the best... i duno how to live without them... thankyou all mane... in any case, last night was a feast at chomp chomp, hittin wif tim, derru, sim and alan, played duper long... from like 4pm to 8 pm plus.. keong my tau huey bro and jon drove so all 9 of us went to chomp on some finger-licking chompy versace food, ate century egg/chicken plus ginger porridge, wanton dried noodles! shared white carrot cake and the gigantic sugarcane drink wif tim and shared heineken with shum, it was a great feast indeed but despite tat i went home still eating, some hams and meat u noe.. i like meat :p... i wanted to do some work and work out a little, manage to only clock up less than an hour and started packing things up for school tml, i decided to turn in early and last night was one of the rare times i head to bed b4 12... and tats how the "scare of me being missing" started hahahahaha.... i dun look like the type who sleeps early huh! haha... power... even if i am goin missing... who cares? yeaup... anws, tml is 23rd nov'06, our friendly vs st andrews jc, the guys shd be a little rusty but they'll be alright, a full of crap yet serious team i have... proud of every one of them... wish i could hav done more for them... and a day later is r0w's birthday! ha hey r0w! i got ur present and notice i used zer0 for "o" of ur name, never forget ok! haa ;] life's must be a little hard handling the temperature eh? hehe... well tats about it for today, thankyou for reading readers... u have a great day... :] chua out~

i am blessed with friends like these... i need them more than anythin else...

2006-11-15T20:07:00.000-08:00

like these burned scented joss-stick and candles overnight, tis heart of mine seem to burn off way much faster than overnight... i am gone, ur right anonymous, i am gone...

2006-11-15T08:53:00.000-08:00

ok headline news... christie broke up wif me... yea... over the phone... once again... i am all alone by myself... thankyou very much... now i can use my body as a battering ram... i just hope no one pisses me off...

i'll do anything to stay with you... anything...

2006-11-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

This is how u remind me... :] the box's waiting for you...

2006-11-07T08:59:00.000-08:00

{{{{{{Asyraf / Myself / Aslam}}}}}}

these hardcore physical slammers came to my house recently to use my sandbag, u should have seen their legs and fists after 40 mins of hittin, its worst than lean meat, full of aggression and noise tat christie on the phone line wif me can also hear it i bet... i didnt train wif them for quite awhile oredi and its good to see i still friends around training, so next time at least i could come back and try to keep up wif them, oh in case ur wondering, the guy on my left is asyraf, my friend since secondary school, he's the "pull-up machine" do pull ups like shredding paper, 34 pull ups in 30 seconds!!! omg la.. yea i've been very close buds wif him coz of cycling, had those long trips to hougang, serangoon, west coast etc wif our china-made cheap bikes (now different oredi hehe)... yea it was those fun moments... i can still rmbr he was so itchy backside he tried to scare a kid at east coast park while cycling, zoomin past the kid causin the kid to fall into the drain wif the bike, piang..but i swear he didnt even touched the kid , the kid just scare himself and lost control of the bike... haa was hilarious... yea asyraf's also my parkour mate, kick and flip together, do lots of physical training together, my sparring partner in ninja-do, he's a power house.. i've got lots of respect for this guy, the guy on the right is his younger bro, aslam... starting to train wif us recently... well in any case, i am under alot of work-load stress now besides, i miss christie... things are pretty shaky for us but i do believe its miscommunication, i dun wan another short relationship, i've always place a 100 or more percent in a relationship and for tat, i'll go through thick and thin wif u, i dun care wot happens, ok sweetheart? I’ve never regretted a moment being part of ur life even though u went abroad :] …i got smth for u when ur back ;] its nth big, dun worry haa... yea and! i got this mini marathon comin up this decmeber, hav yet to train, needa start soon.. target! below 40 mins - 10km.. alrighty! time for some rest, thansk for reading readers... hav a good time and stay happy, its healthier...:]

2006-10-28T21:40:00.000-07:00

Random collage

nothing better to do ar... anw, just came back from cycling wif my kaki weihan... and now i just somehow landed here after wandering around in this comp... well, good news, my parents got a new tv or not really a new tv but more like from my eldest auntie, she gave them some bomba 21 inch tv, pretty cool, now my dad's like actioning wif my tv... just tat i won him by abit... 21inch too but "flat screen" ahahahaha... i hav buns and tim sums for lunch... powerpack... very chinese... i noe... in any case... i hope i am ready for ite's match up tml... i'll try my best for my parents, for the team, for myself n 4 u too...
my life's missing smth and tat is u... i hope u take care of urself there as i regret everyday not being able to look out for u coz i ain there physically, ur exams are coming, work hard and all the best... lots of love from "mr.boyfriend", although i dun really like it but yea w/e.. wells, thanks for reading again blog-readers... have a good day...

---kelvin---

2006-10-26T22:58:00.000-07:00

THE MOFFATTS

"Miss You Like Crazy"

I used to call you my girl

I used to call you my friend

I used to call you the love

The love that I never had

When I think of you I don't know what to do

When will I see you again

[Chorus:]

I miss you like crazy

Even More than words can say

I miss you like crazy

Every minute of every day

Girl I'm so down when your love's not around

I miss you, miss you, miss you

I miss you like crazy

You are all that I want

You are all that I need

Can't you see how I feel

Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you I don't know what to do

When will I see you again

[Chorus]

I miss you like crazy...

2006-10-26T10:50:00.000-07:00

I told you how I felt,I told you what it meant,But I still haven't changed your mind,I know that you're afraid,You're frightened of the pain,But you can let down your guard...Cause when we run, when we hide,We deny what's inside... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it, What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,If you're not willing to start, what good is a heart? Don't make the same mistake that people often make,And miss out on a chance for love,You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon,Cause you're dying inside... Yes, I'm a man, but I cry,I have fears, I won't lie... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it, What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart? Come on, babe, you know it, girl,Anyone who looks can see that I'm right,There's a chance here, we could take it,Or regret it for the rest of our lives... What good is a heart if you're not gonna use it,What good is a love if you're too scared to choose it,If you're heart is beating, then it's for a reason, girl,If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?

-C-

Code Red / What Good Is A Heart lyrics

2006-10-26T00:05:00.000-07:00

MY leadership might not be my best accert and it might even be a major downfall but my character is goin to pull me through this i believe and i really wana apologise to those whom i've let down... i wana make it up and i will make it up for all these, everything...

i am kelvin... nth big... just a pure boy...-_-~

2006-10-22T11:51:00.000-07:00

Now this is the problem after doing my work, had a corona and think about her...
-i miss you-

2006-10-19T10:27:00.000-07:00

1st month anniversary... how quick is tat? well happy offspring month anniversary christie... i love you...

2006-10-14T05:19:00.000-07:00

Hey readers... sup i am back... anw last night was a blast... a watery eggry blast indeed... no wonder my friends asked me to bring extra clothes... had a bbq which myself and some muslim friends organised n invited some friends too, manage to get benedict! its one of these rare times we could get to hang out wif u dicky... thanks for coming... well, we started off wif preparing food and drinks, everything seems well-layed-out... but guests is not on our side, we only had like 5-7 guests! and tat only makes like 12-14 of us... and yea back to the blast... apparently after hanging up my phone call from my dearest love, my friends walked towards me wif a pail of water... and yea it just happen, i kena... the next thing i noe, the guys are running around throwing water artillery bags at each other... zaini was the best he escaped to escaped theme park there and bought water gun, fill it wif coke and bought eggs too... he came back walking cool and calmly wif bags of those stuffs and everyone started running towards him, little do they noe he has his own army, haha and world war 3 begun all over again... total hit from the night, 1 egg slap on the back, one egg drill into the back of my head, 5 water bombs and 3 big pail water shower... i was totally drenched wearing long pants and shoes... it was fun indeed, good way to really de-stress it out... well in the morning though i went for my last dressing for my wound and doc say i can play tennis just no heavy weights, i was so glad... now is my chance, i better take it... and yea on tuesday, i'll be heading for training to c if i make the cut this time after not playing for almost 2 months... well i will train for it, i hope for the best... its fair competition... alrighty, shall go for my run and some cardio exercise tml yeaup tats my plan... need to get back the fitness to keep up wif my team mates... and oh yea btw, i've always been thinking of u... i really am... u noe who u r... i really appreciate how U treat me the past few days... u've been really supportive, u really show tat u are willing to go through thick and thin wif me and for tat, i am willing to do so too...:] please take care of urself over there, esp ur knee... i am really worried bout ur knee... alright then... tats all for now, thanks for reading my blog...

---chua---
I will give u my heart :] -although its not so valuable, i reckon u would wana keep it ;]-

2006-10-05T09:17:00.000-07:00

I duno, this song seems to make sense to me for today...for now...

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Lyrics to Christina Aguilera Hurt

I like this song, blog-readers, if u have this song, have the lyrics too! its pretty amazing... free copy here :] this song just blends so well into my soul... i noe... so girly and mushy...

2006-10-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

i need to stop thinking too much, yea... nothing much for you to read today ar blog-readers... sorry ar... and and and i miss you dearest... sorry for the complications... i do believe its a bummer from the both of us so just step forward and keep going alrite... all the best in ur studies... u've always been the cleverer one :] i love you...

no shit no lies...
just true feelings...

2006-10-03T15:07:00.000-07:00

To be honest wif you, i always wonder y is it complicated to u? maybe its just me.. i reckon..

2006-10-03T02:16:00.000-07:00

I love this collage, yeah, she did it for me... made my day/night...

2006-10-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Hello and good day readers or night, ok, had a pretty alrite day today, was doing my usual chores, being the "handicap" now, i cant really get back to my daily sports, kinda suck but lookin on the bright side, using this time to probably reflect, ease up on things a little bit and yea working on my project.. had a fun night just now, watched the island and waiting wif keong and glenn while indulging ourselves into some long lost food, kfc, god i miss the cheese fries.. yea and thankyou for constantly keeping me in touch, u noe who u r :] life's been pretty stagnant these days ever since i was out of the hospital.. reckon i gained a kg from those laziness and stuff haha.. well i did made myself useful though, went out wif my old malay buddies last night to bugis's ramadan festive bazaar, exposing to some good malay culture, pretty alrite.. had loads of fun, tats all tat counts ain it? ;] Anw, despite doing these much and keepin occupied, i do somehow just feel quite useless at times, like not being there for my tennis team, trainin wif them not forgetting managing them? plus, not following the schedule for my runs to achieve "local record in this year's mini marathon"? the feeling just suck soo much tat i even dreamt about disabled people... i just think how fortunate i am to have this exercizable body tat god had given me... more to say other problems.. i hav no right to think bout tat man! forget all those... put it away, like wot you have told me ;]... thankyou... sincerely... yea, its just the way it is... life lo... tats all tat is to it... and yea someone told me tat i might be looked as an ass for some "topic", well for those who are involved or informed bout tis "topic", i am sorry tat i have disappointed u or make u wana curse me a dickwipe or smth... coz i really dun care anymore, its been too complicated and i have had enough my own self, u shd ask for the truth b4 u start taking sides or give comments... maybe take a little break and meditate? think bout urself instead? try not to hate someone, i learnt tat it ain healthy, just make u a worst person, i rather forgive and forget... yup... So, i got a newly burned cd from keong, the album of "micheal learns to rock", thanks blarder! really appreciate it... and yea teaa, :], i miss u so so much, good luck for ur up-coming psy test, u'll do great... thanks for hearing me out too and being sucha a great partner... i love u... i dun care wot others think about u too either... just let me know if they gona ever touch u... haha like i am gona do anythin?! ok tat was meant to be a joke but i noe, it ain funny -_-``... aite blog-readers, thankyou for taking this time reading bout my thoughts / life... have some peace and fun... yall take care aite... lots of love... beef~

Micheal learns to rock's music reminds me of 2 things:
1. Relax and look at life on the brighter side
2. Christie Way Qiu Yue :] (you gave me oppurtunities...)

---kelvin out---

2006-09-28T01:29:00.000-07:00

i don't care wot others say, theres only one life we have and i am living it right now... :]

anonymous whoever u ar, i dun blame u coz tis is a free world but at least tell me wot do u mean by ur gone...

2006-09-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

today marks the day of the beginning of a test for my patience... i am replying on alot of stuffs to keep me goin... like "danieta senorita" n ur picture most imptly, gotta work on report and make sure i do well so as u wun worry too much, i wish u all the best over there, peace no war~~~ love u...

---kelvin---

2006-09-18T16:00:00.000-07:00

New beginning, reckon its gona be good.. :)

please take care when u leave... will always miss u...

2006-09-16T09:42:00.001-07:00

KNOW wot i did the past awakeness? i woke up yesterday and do things as per normal... went for dressin durin the day and chill out... in the evening, i went over to an invited party for old sec school mates... saw dramatic changes on all my friends man! all like got license and everythin... ahyo.. unbelievable.. it was a great catch up to do.. my wound's kind of healing so i took extra care of it while i am outside... haha and guess wot.. fandi, my good ncc buddy from sec school, lopang me on his honda bike hahahaha song bo.. i didnt tell my parents coz if i do they'll kill me... he lopang me all the way to christie's place at 2340hours... i was supposed to stay over night at her place to hang out wif timmy and kelly as well... promised them i'll be there early but end up during midnight... haha... well tat night was fun... we hanged out ... watch movies.. and halfway timmy and kelly just knocked out leavin me and chris to watch "waiting", damn stupid show... its hilarious... haa, yea then in the morning.. around 6am
the 2 sleepyheads woke up and they decided to watch "The Shining", its like omg laa... the screen shot from the show twister i rmbred is tat freakin show!!! %@$^#&#$^& i was as usual.. being the scared one.. hide behind christie and kelly... i noe they bth me also la but i really cant help it... its scary shit.... well... after tat we hav to leave kinda coz of me haha coz i need to go dressing again... and today's half day till 12 noon nia... so yea.. long 2 days ar... nvr really sleep except in the afternoon, just a while only... oh well, its been relieving somewhat, glad i occupy myself over heavy thoughts... its a good thing... but then again, i'll still end up alone at night gettin ready to sleep and i think bout those thoughts all over again... it sucks but its life... well... for now, i am just worried bout my wound coz its really depressing, training wif the team for so long and i cant play for school this year... my cycling "plan" is sorted out and i cant carry it out, my running for this year's marathon will also be jeopardise... its all coz of what? my open wound... just amazing laa... everyday i live tis life..everytime i wake up... i feel like shit.. i feel like i've accomplish nth... someone really made tat worst too and it just sucks.. but i gotta deal wif it... and tats wot i am STILL doing/figuring out... well i'll try... i'll tryy... peace no war~

do u think its possible?

2006-09-14T09:39:00.000-07:00

I FEEL LIKE THIS...

What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?
Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself andbecame this machine
Thoughtlessness
(I feel)Selfishness
(I feel)Hopelessness
(I feel)Arrogant
I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?
Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child
Confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back
Through the words of surrender
Emptiness
(I feel)Loneliness
(I feel)Listlessness
(I feel)Worthless
I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you
Surrender to the secretes...inside
Lies within you
I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?
Can't feel you on the inside
Set down the bag and left it
Lost memory has left me
One again
Open up the inside
Admission for the cleansing
Now that I've forgotten to remember
Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you

lyrics from Mudvayne - Forget To Remember

2006-09-12T01:48:00.000-07:00

Jialat, theres a hole on my body... JIALAT AR!!!!

2006-09-08T09:42:00.000-07:00

god... time to open ur yahwee mail.. if ur there, could u answer me this? am i so invaluable to u? have u ever look upon me? be fair to me? or r u doin tis to me for a reason?

yours sincerely
kelvin

2006-09-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

i lay on my bed almost physically-disabled... no sports no nth, the operation's wound is like a swollen scar mini like tennis ball on my abdominal.. i feel pain outside as well as inside... project's unhealthy, body not good to go, heart shattered, god... wot am i gona do???

i'm tired of being what you want me to be feeling so faithless lost under the surface i don't know what you're expecting of me put under the pressure of walking in your shoes [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] every step that i take is another mistake to you i've become so numb i can't feel you there become so tired so much more aware i'm becoming this all i want to do is be more like me and be less like you can't you see that you're smothering me holding too tightly afraid to lose control cause everything that you thought i would be has fallen apart right in front of you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] every step that i take is another mistake to you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] and every second i waste is more than i can take but i know i may end up failing too but i know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

numb-linkinpark

2006-08-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

I watched An american haunting!!!!! compliments from sjaiful and shah... Woo hoo although to some of you its chicken backside, to me... its an ACHIEVEMENT... stay un-scared... peace!

---kelvin---
the not so scared guy after all...

2006-08-28T18:17:00.000-07:00

got to school in 2.5 mins today, 2 mins shy from being late, compliments of "buttons" by PCD and my 2nd wife...

OMG la...

2006-08-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

Busy day today, got ticked off by uncle sam coz of napae... she's not been attending training and apparently i never keep khartini informed through email but thru hp yes... just tat khartini dun reply ALL THE TIME... -_-~ and just tat.. yeaup, anw, the day b4 today i had to spend time wif my pal, jiangshu, she's having a hard time man, i pray for her happiness la, dun worry pal, i trust u make the right choice and be STRONG... i love you :)... anw... back to today! it was school as usual, but besides gettin ticked off by sam, i am having trouble writin my report for my major project, i better buck up.. i am losing the rhythm... somehow... got back home, had dinner wif my parents again, watch a little tv and got back to work, got lots of admin stuff to do though, this explanation i gotta settle wif the SAA, i gotta print out the whole attendance records for the team throughout this semester, settled sjai's coach claim for the month and prepare the STAS report for some of my team mates, burn the cambodia pics for uncle sam(been dragging this for quite awhile) and yea had a stout-beer share from my dad hahaha... he's nice tonite, gave me a little boost... and yea, did some workout and basically just chat wif christie online... she ain doin very good either, haa, i hope she'd be fine... ;)... alrighty, tats it for now, kelvin~ out~

sayonara~~~

all the best for your exams - words from god...

2006-08-24T01:39:00.000-07:00

hello again, today so far ain productive at all, sorry pearlyne, its like tat, cant always be happy one... anws, its a school day as usual so what i manage to work on is my project report, due next friday, good luck to me... and yea i wrote tis post is bcoz when pearlyne sign in, it reminded me how demanding she is, she wans to be credited here so ok lo, here we are... besides, i owe her a lollipop out of duno wot la, i just noe i owe her one... or i'll get myself killed... and yea due to unforeseen circumstances, tennis camp this october at raffles marina is likely to be changed to somewhere, very likely near tanah merah there, still aite, still a camp... yes, i am goin out later for dinner wif someone... gona get home after tat and chill and try to find something educational or productive to do... hmm, got tips from a friend sayin tat mars's closing into earth n on the 27th august 12.30am, it will be as if there is 2 moons, but actually one moon, one mars laa... the sky shd be redder than b4 and it will be cool if they drop some mars's souveniers down to earth, probably a "Mars attack" soundtrack cd or smth u noe, have some alien pop rock to entertain us like tat... alrite i am goin out of point and do u noe why? coz i am BORED and coz of PEARLYNE's (happy? :) demands... alritey... peace out~

i hope things arent so complicated actually....

HAPPY PEARLYNE????????????? -_-~

2006-08-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

You give me a spark but the problem lies with me not knowing if its sparkling juice or red wine, i can either be happy(heaven) or get drunk(hell), i am kinda lost but kinda delighted too... i really appreciate ur heart... but now that u told me wot u expect from me, i feel like i am in deep shit all over again... and the thing is i dun feel secured wif u and ur demands(its not a bad thing, it just sounds fierce, its just english)... so yea, i need to solve this... i am not sherlock homes but i hope i could gather enough clues to help myself... u avoided me, it says alot... a new beginning with lots to work on... i am having a tough time, i ask my pal if i did the right thing and i think wot i did is alrite coz i followed my heart...

i am risking it all...

2006-08-21T11:07:00.000-07:00

You may have seen this image before but why i put this up is because i always tot of blog as a "reminder of your doings etc.." so i tot a reminder of good things is great too.. well i gotta thank wei han for this, it means alot to me, it just reminds me tat i have smth i love doing and i shdnt care too much bout her after all, what do i get in the end? same thing... so whats the point? its just too bad, i have to live on... this simple photo is indeed a picture of passion... :)

peace.... no war please....

2006-08-20T09:12:00.000-07:00

Well, long day today, as in long rest, had the new balance real run '06 in the morning! 7.30am the race starts, i was there at 7.27am queeing up for the lockers, dad rushed through ecp like nascar but i have to end up goin in on foot from keppel harbour, TRAFFIC JAM... haha good warm up b4 the run... as usual, hundreds of people young and old turn up for the this event, great to see so many people adopting a healthy lifestyle.. anws, the kids are fast man... this boy... botak one, about a head shorter than me... i was entering the trail section the last part of the run and i am almost dying oredi coz the sand section took all of my oxygen, this boy i overtook him at the sand section and lost sight of him oredi, by the 4.0km mark, he's running pass me like a cheetah, piang, so small, so fast... very impressed wif these kids... i end up slowing down on the last section but i was trying to keep up wif the leading pack... all school team... wah nao eh, i am the only one wif the "run around naked" top, the rest are like anglican high, some club shit, and some student development shit... etc... yea it was a tough run, i am gettin old and i have a hard time catchin up wif these speedos n i think my timing for this run was ard 21 min mark, yea 2 mins improvement on last year's same event, a littel bit of satisfaction there haha... well, theres a marathon comin up though, hopefully i could get smth out of it, gotta start running more now! yea yea ... after the run, i went to pai my ah ma at the geylang temple... and went to lorong 24 for prawn noodles... my parents recommended me there, they say its nice... so after all that, i went back home and i just peng onto the bed... bth oredi... had to peng... slept till 8.30pm la!!! wah nao eh... pig laa.. woke up and i tot i missed school... haha... well its alrite, all i need is to rest more now, stretch more and go start running again! peace!

happy birthday cwmy...

2006-08-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

ok had a long day today, took mc.. haha, tummy wasnt feeling too good, doctor says my intestine's kinda sensitive... *big eyes*, slept for 6 hours though, went to buy raiden 3 pc game and end up gettin cheated... installed and all i have is some stupid thunder shit, on the happier note though, keong came by and install call of duty for me! its amazing.. the game's so realistic... thanks keong... yea so! i just came back from a run... i noe its late at night and which psychopathe will run at tis time.. yea me...-_-~, wasnt too happy wif my run though, competition is coming up and my timing still ain good... 18.15 on my usual route.. slow! well i hope i'd do better the next run... alrighty... needa get ready for school later n finish up my mashed potatoes, haa... peace... no war~ more call of duty... :D....

this is for myself...

2006-08-15T09:31:00.000-07:00

Hi all u fags... haha j/k... long day as usual, 8 to 5 standard for sipees... kinda bumped up with lots of things, so as usual after school went for training, was a relaxed training, nothing tiriing at all just tat my strings burst again and leavin me wif no racquet to play had to borrow keong's durin the doubles match wif derru, calvin and mervyn... the match was kinda screwed for me either? felt kinda stone and rusty, probably didnt warm up enough, got the game 9-4 though but sim and mervyn was giving us the points, they can take us on anytime... was very happy bout glenn's match too, 9-3 up against weiwen, foo... wot a score line, heard he was 6-0 up and weiwen started to hold serve from then but was too late coz he hold serve too... kinda proud of him although i feel like dog talkin bout him here, but he's my batch's team member in tennis too, seen him improved tremendously is a good thing as he will the highlight in this year's polite games... well, as for ME, i suck! keep bursting strings... and play like a cock... might as well be a chicken... -_-~... yea HEAD's heading down to tp this thurs, we'll c wot they've got... i would probably not buy one of their racquet, why? COZ i NO MONEY LA... duh and yea for some queer reasons, after trainin during makan, maria ask me if i am free during saturdays tat we could probably hang out, haha felt kinda like waooh! i actually have people so friendly to me and i thought i am all lonely during the weekends haa, now i know! (i am glad she would ask me to hangout, its very nice of her, singapore is so boring u need a life, u need friends)... alrite... i guess tats about it for today... fcuked up & i better start running more, real run's nearing u nutball.... peace!

kelvin checking into bed~

2006-08-14T22:49:00.000-07:00

i gotta change for the good... i have not been a good guy for quite awhile... i am sorry i disappointed u mr wong, my parents and all my friends around me...

pity...

2006-08-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

I am so screwed...

wishing for u...

2006-08-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

This is something for u guys to laugh at...
& for me keep my mind off stuffs...

2006-08-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

i duno how is it possible that i can tired out myself by doin the following... : Woke up at 10am plus and head down to the temple to pray my ah ma (i love u ah ma), went to old airport road to have lunch wif my uncles, aunts and cousins... came back home and rest then head out to meet my cousin at 5pm. played arcade games, walked around bumped in gladys and patrina at starbucks and bumped into derru and cheryl at isetan... hanged out wif my cousin and da sao(cousin's gf).. and tats about it! come home... waited for my parents to have dinner together... had dinner, chat wif christie on msn... watched las vegas and here i am typing blog... how can all these make me tired?!!! queer.... its just me.. i noe... haa... well doesnt matter now... got school again tomorrow... dang... gona make over my room soon, make it "have it all and just relax" room... aite... thats bout it for now... peace no war~ beef eat more~ out~~~

i miss you...

2006-08-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

What's done for the day...

-Woke up late, didnt went for tennis... -_-~
-Ate Mee pork dry at bout 3pm... late lunch -_-~
-Went to TM to buy Tree hill season 2... :)
-Ate dinner wif my parents after a long time... been busy 4 quite awhile :)
-Cleaned and serviced my "always use to get to school" bike... felt really satisfied :)
-Watched 4 episodes of tree hill's season 2... too tempted!! :)
-Thinking of this whole life i've been through... ~_~``

2006-08-12T00:53:00.000-07:00

Kinda lost track with this sport, miss the practices and training, been too busy with other sports and school work... a unnecessary pre-occupied thoughts of someone... i hope someone could give me the strength like there i am in the picture where i used to be free from those thoughts...

join ninja-do, its good :)

2006-08-12T00:34:00.000-07:00

The way we drink the soyabean is so spastic... keong look like he got a backache, dave seems to be in a "am i drinkin correctly?" position, ethan's like "heh i got tau huey!" & me, my soyabean is actually dripping..

---these people means more than you---

2006-08-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

will start to blog alot more soon, dont seem to have much to say now, maybe later la huh... anyway, this blog of mine is improvised by christie, thanks a lot way...

---you never know if you dun try---

2006-08-11T22:49:00.000-07:00

Things wouldnt have been so cold if that never happened... what are you thinking? i'll never find out...

2006-08-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

Haa..blog sia... kinda excited but kinda feeling this is not wot u shd spend ur time on...